Simple Bright Moon

I have a new website! Please take a look. I also just completed this new skirt "Crazy Petal", and it is for sale at simple bright moon along with Etsy

My forever love.... my hostel!

I have been waiting patiently to get some land and to form MY HOSTEL. A piece of property fell into my lap recently, and Mat and I went to look at it last night. It is perfect, the location, the layout, the fruit trees, and the cabin (unfinished, perfect). I know this will take A LOT of work, patience, time,and MORE WORK, however I feel I just can't let it pass me by. I am going to go out with the Realtor tomorrow to walk the grounds, ask questions, get answers, and a better feel.(as if the feeling of the land isn't amazing already). I know my mother is reading this and flipping out, but it is my dream, my love and my goal in life. I have wanted this since April 3 2005, I have been waiting, pondering, and looking for the right place ever since, and I believe I have found it. Now I know it is still not in a hands grasp, but once it is I will good a firm grip and not let go.

a deep breath, and a loud scream

I was wearing my favorite dress yesterday, long purple festival dress, but something kept pricking me in the back of the leg. As I was making change at our register I finally took a moment to see what it was. I found a seed with sharp ends on it as I pulled it out of the bottom of my dress I cursed it getting ready to throw it away, when a friend/ coworker says," isn't that amazing? Us as people are considered to be the smartest living thing, but look at plants that attach them selves to objects to spread around in order to continue existing" I took a moment and completely agree with her! What a lovely way to look at it. As we all need to be reminded of the simplest things in life. And learn how to adjust with existing with a better out look. I am preparing to have a yard sale this weekend, and am about ready to sell all my knickknack STUFF. I have STUFF, and the way I feel about it is if it doesn't hold sentimental value, or has not been used in a year get rid of it! Clutter- I am ready to get rid of clutter. I am a messy person, because my brain is always going on to the next project not giving myself anytime to clean up the last. I'm tired of things sitting around and if I move to a more simpler lifestyle then the one Mat and I already live (pretty simple as it is ) then my life will not be so filled with unusable items and bring happiness into others. We shall see how far I get with the already long list for the week. Again that better out look. One thing I can not have a better out look on is my student loan debt! I am drowning and nothing can be done- I have paid off two of my loans, but I still have the big daddy! starting out at 64,999.00 down to 61,489.00! I have paid $20,000.00 to them and it has not even gone down 4,000.00! There is nothing I can do about it! I want to stop paying but where will that get me? homeless? bad credit score? taken out of my paycheck? I pay 700.00 a month! that is a mortgage payment! I looked into bankruptcy but private student loans are not eligible - why? just because- no answer. I am not going back to school now, I am trying my damnedest to go off the grid, or as self sufficient as we can. Mat and I can't even think about getting married or kids! He/they would be responsible for my debt. the US can bail out the banks that lent the money but can't bail out the people who make payments - struggle to make those payments - but find a way to do such b/c it is the right thing to do? What about the fact I have paid 20K and my loan has not gone down but a measly 3,500.00? Who is responsible for ripping off students? Students who are told "follow your dream, you can do anything". Oh just take out a loan and it will be fine. Please if anyone knows of any outreach in this subject please contact me. I am drowning alive, and can no longer sweep it under the rug!

Today my heart hurts, I long to speak to my beloved grandmother. I miss her and think of her every day. I dreaded the that I would hear the news, that she passed on. When Mat came up the stair the first of March I knew something just was not right. He had a look in his eye of pain, he spoke the words, as I fell in his arms and to my knees crying so hard and so painfully. I couldn't stand, speak or even open my eyes. My grandmother believed in me like nobody else, she listened to every word I spoke and her voice filled with joy when I would call and say hello to her most Thursdays before sewing. I am so glad I called her and spoke to her on the Saturday before she passed, she sounded good and filled with spirit. She had been sick the weeks leading up to her death. I remember, telling my father that I promise to carry on the last name White, and now I hope I can fulfill this promise, I am today the only person left in my family to carry it on. I am what is left of the White side. In loving memory of Bethel M White, Frank White, and Wayne White --

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What we have been working so hard on this spring....

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I will post soon!! and thank you Anna :)